Spring Break

Hmmm... It seems to be my priority to never sleep! Oh well, I'll live. Yay! My brother Cameron is happily married to Becca and they are now at the cabin enjoying their honeymoon :)

Today marks the start of a new beginning for me (I hope I can pull through it). I'm very tired of being self centered and self conscious! I'm ready to go out into the world and do some service, even if it means just helping out my mom with things that she needs to get done around the house, well then, so be it! I shall not fail! Or, at least, I'll try not to.

I read something really cute the other day while I was perusing the online site deviantart. (It's a site where artists and writers can become members, post their work, and receive feedback. In case you didn't know) And no, I'm not a member, but I do enjoy looking at other people's work and reading the stories on there. It gives me ideas for my own stuff. Anyways, it was a fan fiction about Alice in Wonderland (the old cartoon version by Disney) where Alice is older. It's a love story between her and the Mad Hatter.

An odd pairing? Oh certainly. But plenty of room for fun bickering and really cute stuff? MOST definitely and it's a drawn comic as well. The Hatter actually looks more human because it's based on the two actual people in Disney Land who are those characters. The writer works there. (Sadly it isn't finished... That's the main problem about deviantart... a lot of the writings aren't finished and sometimes people don't ever finish... frustration...)

Anyways, they're falling in love and in the very last scene written, the Hatter is serenading Alice at her window (which really bugged her initially) and tries to make her come down. She, at that point, is questioning if she really does have feelings for him and is debating on whether she should or not. It causes a lot of stress for her, so much so that the Hatter notices. He decides it would be best for them not to have an evening chat and decides to leave her be, but not before she gets the random urge to reach down and touch his fingertips. Then she slams the window shut and he falls down. :)

That, however, is not my favorite part. What I like about it is that in the story the narrator explains that 'you would think that he would have walked home that night and that's what Alice assumed and yada yada' but what she never finds out is that he grabs a stick, sits down against the wall and intends to protect her from any stranger, mad duck, or rabid bear that might come along (you'd have to read it to understand about the duck and bear) And then morning comes and he leaves.

Very romantic, not exactly realistic, but I just had the feeling that I want to find someone who would care for me like that. I need to be my best self so that I can find someone like that, because that's so sweet. I know it's not real. It's just a story, but even in a story anyone can take the advice from within and apply it to their own life. And so what I want to take from it is that I want to look my best, and be my best so that I can find the person who is right for me. He doesn't have to protect me from a rabid bear, or stay all night to make sure I'm safe. I just want to find someone good for me.

I wish all stories could make me feel like that. Not in the romantic sense, but make me want to be better and want to change myself because of it. Like in the movie "A Little Princess" (SUCH a good movie. It's the version made in 1995). It just makes you feel great, and it made me want to write stories that make people feel good, that teach you about hope and good values and permits a happiness at the end of the movie. I wish all movies and books were like that, where they bring out the best in people.

Anyways, in case you were interested in reading that cute little fan fiction, it's called "When Curiosity Meets Insanity".  http://curiousinsane.livejournal.com/ You might have to become a member of tumblr to read it, but it's so worth it :)